Good Morning.....just got through hooking up Nick to his IV. PTL we will be done with the IV meds Wednesday. I cannot believe we have been doing that for six weeks, twice a day. I so miss our old routine. As a family getting up, going to Church together. Every Saturday night Nick will say " I am going to Church tomorrow" but he is struggling right now with the chemo making him very weak and nauseated and is only on half the dose, we are just praying the side effects will subside for him.
I will be honest friends, this is getting tougher. I knew it would, but it doesn't make it any easier to witness. Your strength is tested with each day that brings on something new. Some days you JUST hold it together and other days, there is laughter and joy. Thank you so much Lord for those days. Everyday with Nick is a gift no matter how bad it can get. I am also blessed to have a son that is Godly and tender and probably doesn't even realize the support he offers to me and hid Dad. Every time he walks into the room, I see his Daddy's eyes light up! Those are the moments I have to gold back the tears.
If you let it, the anxiety can consume you, I confess there are days I have let it. Whether things are going good, or not so good we have to make sure God stays first in our lives. I HAVE to share with you the devotional I got a couple of days ago. It was a really bad day and I remember saying God I am feeling defeated and discouraged right now....help me! I sat down at my computer and this was waiting for me:
Sometimes God says 'not yet' by Rick Warren
You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For in just a very little while, "He who is coming will come and will not delay." Hebrews 10:36-37 (NIV)
"If you're discouraged, turn it around by remembering God teaches you patience during delay."
If you're discouraged because of God's delay in answering your prayers, understand the delay is NOT a denial. Just because the answer or the miracle hasn't come - yet - that doesn't mean God isn't going to answer or that he's forgotten you or that he doesn't care about you. It simply means "not yet!"
Part of becoming spiritually mature is learning the difference between "no" and "not yet," between a denial and a delay. The Bible tells us, "He who is coming will come and will not delay" (Hebrews 10:37 NIV).
God's delay may be a test of your patience. Anybody can be patient once. And, most people can be patient twice. And, a lot of us can be patient three times. So God tests our patience over and over and over.
Why? So he can see how patient you are? No!
He does it so you can see how patient you are. So you'll know what's inside you, and you'll be able to know your level of commitment. God tests you so that you can know he is faithful, even if the answers you seek are delayed.If you're discouraged, turn it around by remembering God teaches you patience during delay. Ask him to transform your discouragement into patience.
You may be going through difficult times right now. You're discouraged because the situation you face seems unmanageable, unreasonable, or unfair.
It may seem unbearable and inside you're basically saying, "God, I can't take it anymore. I just can't take it anymore!"
But you can.
You can stay with it longer because God is with you. He'll enable you to press on. Remember, you are never a failure until you quit. Resist discouragement and finish the race God has set before you.
I just love when God does that for me!! I have never thought of turning my discouragement into patience..Have you? I know he is testing our patience...I admit I need refining in that area at times. This devotional just encouraged me so much. His Word always pierces my heart and open my eyes to truth and change that needs to take place in me.
Our specific prayer request right now would be for the side effects of the chemo to subside or go away.
We are blessed to have a God that shelters us with His love, comfort, guidance and peace.
You are all amazing reflections of a loving and tender God.