Feb 13th, 2011/Finding closure through the blogs.

I cannot believe it has been two weeks already. The Memorial was amazing and full of God's sweet presence. I do feel like time has now slowed down a bit. Aaron and I have really spent time trying to catch up on some much needed rest. I am surprised at all the loose ends I am having to tie up. Nick took care of everything, so needless to say I am learning a lot. I will tell you once I have accomplished something, I do feel a little empowered and that Nick would be proud of me. I guess that's a good thing!!

I am just trying to breathe and de-stress (if that is possible). As with any mourning process you never really know when something will bring on the tears. A thought, a picture, song etc.....I just know that Nick is with us everyday. I so miss seeing him sitting in his recliner, but then I think about how healthy, happy and handsome he must be and the tears quickly dry up. I know that weather I am joyful or sad God will remain faithful.

I am so humbled by the requests to continue to blog. I will probably do a couple more updates on this blog and then write a final one bringing it to an end. I feel like that is what God is putting on my heart to do. It will bring some closure to a very long journey. If the Lord impressed upon me to start a new blog, I would, but I will wait on His calling to see if that is His plan for me.

My prayer is that I will have a platform to share what God has already done and will continue to do in my life through all of this. To be able to tell of the hope found only through Jesus, and that no matter what your circumstances are, you can cling to Him and be blessed. I want to encourage others as Christ has encouraged me. People and things on this earth will let us down, but God's love is infinite and He won't disappoint us. Through our Heavenly Father there are always better and brighter moments to come. I want to be able to share of the transformation that has taken place in me, in my heart and in my soul, and that anyone can have that same freedom. I simply just want to share His love!!

God Won't Forget
As we cannot forget our children, how much less can God erase our relationship from His memory. If we, who lack all of God's power, do good things for those we love, how much more is He willing to do them for us? All we need do is trust that something good lies at the end of this trial---something God had in mind for us all along. Anonymous

We Delight in His Name,

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